.....with a 14 year old girl. Who lives in Ukraine. Who we believe God is placing in our family. "A father of the fatherless, a defender of widows. Is God is His holy habitation. GOD sets the solitary in families. He brings out those who are bound into prosperity." Psalm 68:5-6
We've had the growing realization since she first came to us last summer that she would always be a part of our lives. Deciding whether or not to re-host her for Christmas was a big deal, because we knew it was a step closer to a decision...are we her forever family? And we didn't want to keep hosting her but never be her true family. We didn't want her always hoping, never able to trust when we said "I love you" that there was no limit to that.
I don't think she has ever known that love before.
God slowly opened our eyes to see that if we could do something to care for her, how could we refuse? And just like our move to WA and pursuing missions, He gently but clearly told us "it's not a sin if you don't do this, but I will abundantly bless it if you do". So, terrified, we step out in faith.
It's so crazy, because adoption has never been on our radar (neither was missionary work, go figure....). But God knows the plans He has for us! And for her. And He is big enough that is just might be possible that He had her born on the other side of the world 14 years ago while we were ready to selfishly quit on our marriage because it didn't make us happy. 10 years ago God interrupted that selfishness with our amazing son Sammy. 8 years ago Anya was in an orphanage and we were separated, having truly given up. It looked like Sam would be an only child. 7 years ago, God healed our marriage quite miraculously and gave us our first beautiful daughter. 3 years ago He called us to live more fully for a Him than we ever had. And gave us our "bonus baby" Asher! And 9 months ago, He brought us Anya. The plans He has for her are just beginning to unfold before us.
So we are in "step 1" of the adoption process: completing our Homestudy. So far it has been joyous, only minor hassle. Our social worker is great and it has been kind of amazing to look over our lives and see how faithful God has been and all the ways He has prepared us for this. "Step 2" is submitting everything to U.S. Customs and Immigration, "Step 3" is submitting it all to Ukraine in a dossier, and "Step 4" is traveling to Ukraine to adopt her! Hopefully by September.
So many thing can and will change as we go down this road, we know. It could even be that He has another family for her and He wanted our obedience and love. That's ok. Because we have already been blessed beyond measure.
So many challenges ahead when we get her home...it's not as if her life has been without trauma. And we will just have to lean hard on our Savior.
Please pray....for her that she would grow in her relationship with Jesus. And for us and Sam, Ciara and Asher as we prepare to welcome her home.