Sunday, July 7, 2013

10 days to go....

In just ten days we will be sharing our home and lives with two kids from Ukraine. One a teenage girl, with whom I have no experience other than as babysitters and that I was one once (a period of my life I'd rather forget....except that was when I surrendered to Jesus :) ). Anya. I know so little about her...what will she be like, how will we communicate, what will her needs be? And she knows even less about us. I just pray that her youth is shielding her from all the fears that plague us adults!

And then through God's amazing work, we also have a 10 year od boy coming. Tymofiy. I am a little less worried about him since I already have a 10 year old boy, although the way he thinks (or doesn't!) is a mystery to me.  Boys don't seem to need to talk as much as eat and play so I'm less worried about the language barrier. But I have no idea of his history or needs either.

Basically I feel completely unprepared and terrified.

I mean, we have beds for them. A few clothes and toothbrushes. Some ideas of things to do and places to. Google translate ready to go. A vehicle generously lent to us by friends. And love.

1 Corinthians 13:1-3, 8a
" If I speak with the tongues of men and angels but do not have love, I am only a resounding gong or a clanging cymbal. If I have the gift of prophecy and can fathom all  mysteries and all knowledge, and if I have faith that can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I give all I possess to the poor and give over my body to hardship that I may boast , but do not have love, I gain nothing.....Love never fails".

Okay, well, I don't have the gift of tongues or prophecy and I have very little faith. I struggle with personal sacrifice. Is God saying that's okay?

I think He is. Because what Gabe and I do have for these kids is love. A crazy amount of love. I see it in all the other host families as well. And all we can do is trust that the God who gave us that love will also give Anya and Tymofiy hearts open to receive it.

We covet your prayers though. I mean, really, please pray for us! The enemy is attacking us and causing conflict between us, dark clouds of fear to surround us, illness, babies to be fussy and clingy, weariness, doubt and sadness. We see it and we cry out to Him but are also battling feelings of guilt for not being stronger and "better prepared".

The kids are due to arrive July 17. They have been delayed a few days longer than we originally thought, and selfishly, I am thankful for an extra week to pray and prepare. An added blessing is the VBS our old church is doing this week that will give me and our kids a break from each other :), great spiritual food for them and hopefully good time with The Lord for me. I have a bit of guilt over not volunteering when so many of my brothers and sisters sacrificially are, but I know they will be blessed for it.

Stay tuned for the next bend in the ever winding road.....He is faithful.

John 15:5
" I am the vine; you are the branches. If you remain in me and I in you, you will bear much fruit; apart from Me you can do nothing."